Since I have started working on posts for my fiction blog, the first thing that I always think about is how long is it going to last?
I like to start things up, like gym training, or saving money, but there is always someting which seems to stop me dead and I find that all the things i try to do, end up half done and cluttering up my personal space. So even though I stay optimistic about my first peice of published literature, in the back of my head is the niggling little voice that tells me, "It will never get done".
I said i an earlier post and still maintain that its a perfectionist issue. I am never sure if I can put the ideas and feelings i have stored up in my brain, and get them on the page. (Or in this case a computer screen) I always try, thats the one thing I can always say, I try very hard. But somehow the result has always been the same.
I read it and reread it and tweak it and trim it, i edit and enlongate and in some cases eviscerate the narrative.
But sometimes it becomes such a large mess, that I cant physically see how I can show it to anyone.
Then last night I had a breakthrough of sorts!!!!!
I was testing out the new wireless printer, and I decided to print both the chapters i have currently uploaded to my sister blog. I picked up the pages and all of a sudden I realised something unusual was happening. I had about 12 pages in my hand, and a voice in my head kept saying "I made you". I couldnt put the pages down, and I read them in my hand, even turning the pages as if it were a real book, and I felt like I actually had something to show for my many attempts at writing.
A short stack of paper made me feel like a writer, more than anything else has ever done for me in the past!!!
I put the pages in a folder and I put the folder on my dest, and now when I am not sure what to do, I loook at what I already made.
The hard part is over, I took the first step in a hundred mile journey, and I owe it to myself to keep going.
Anyway guys, gals, and garden gnomes, if you want to read the second chapter of Alone in the Crowd has been posted http://alone-in-the-crowduk.blogspot.com/ and if you are a first time reader you can follow the links back to chapter 1.
Please remember that all feedback and comments are welcome :)
