I Want to Write !!!

One of the reasons I got into blogging was the simple idea that I love stories. Ever since I was old enough to read I have always wanted to be an author. I suppose everyone wants to one day pick up a notepad and find they have become the next JK Rowling or Stephen King.

For me I never knew what I wanted to though, did I want to be a journalist, did I want to right the next Harry Potter, or did I want to be a poet ? To be honest, I wanted to be all of these things, thats how much I love writing sometimes, just loosing yourself to telling a story you feel passionate about.

So with that in mind I thought about why I don't do it as a career, and unfortunately the truth is, Fear. I fear being rejected, I fear getting it wrong, I fear fumbling my words, or people just plain hating it. So as sad as it sounds I live with fear that no one will ever let me write a story, and I decided I no longer want to be afraid.

So I wrote a story, or the beginning of one at least, and I blogged it :). I don't care if a publisher hates it, I just want to tell a story.

So my new fiction piece is called Alone in the Crowd and you can find it at, http://alone-in-the-crowduk.blogspot.com/ . I hope you like it, and if it turns out to be your taste don't be shy about saying so. :D

This long old beast is only chapter 1 with more to follow on as soon as I can write them.

To anyone who has a dream, but are afraid, don't be anymore, it's sometimes worse to sit alone and wonder what you might of done, if you were more brave.


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My Dangerous Obsession

Let me cast your minds back just a few months to when I first started my blog, and you might remember my fondness for iPhone, apps and all things Apple. Now remember when just a Month ago I needed to shell out to buy a new laptop. Now this made life very perilous for me because of the infamous iPad coming out.

I know what the reviews and some public opinion has to say about the device, but then I remember they said the exact same thing about the iPhone when it first came out too. At the end if the day it is a gorgeous piece of tech and I lusted it in a way only a fan boy can. But what to do considering my financial issues and a house to build? I though if I just blocked it out then I would just wait till I could afford it in the future. You know the same lie....

The more I worked out the math, the more unlikely it seemed that I would be able to get myself an iPad for a good long while. So I did the most natural thing, I completely accepted it. After all what more could I do. Problem is that Lasted all of ten minutes and then I decided I really really really was not going to give myself any peace until I got one....... So I did.

Was quite random really and I was wracked with guilt, at least till I turned the beast on and then I was having too much fun to be "reeeeally" guilty. At least not until my mum found the receipt, man can she scream.

So there you have it probably bad move financially, but when its this much fun, can we ever really say the money was wasted?


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I am a Twitterati

It has finally happened I have joined those few and fad lovin Twitter people. Bolstered by celeb personalities such as the divine Stephen Fry this site gives me the same oppurtunity to moan and bitch and vent, and I have to admit it is fascinating :).

I am not leaving my clockwork universe to tick along without me, but it is just another fun thing to do. So anyone who is a twitterer then please feel free to seek me out @poisonedessence. I know the name is a stretch but I wanted to sound badass, actually I think I sound emo .....

To all my fellow twits, catch you all soon. Love and kisses and pelvic thrusts :)

Scott

Waiting for Change

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I figured out this morning that I am always waiting for something, whether it's a bus, or the bf, or one of those life changing moments. I always feel like I am standing on the precipice of starting something, and to be honest I'm kind of getting sick of it.

Right now I am waiting for my bus to work, which for some reason encourages my brain to start working through the emotional baggage. Right now I feel a bit stagnant in my job and don't know how to get over that, likewise I am trying to figure out how to shake things up in my personal life to make it more rewarding.

In short I am waiting at lifes bus stop, and the bus is not quite in sight yet..... Maybe I should get a lift in ?